My hatred of all things Russian grows stronger every day. I have always considered Russia to be a peculiar country, drunk, raw, but proud and stable.
I have admired Russia's many unprecedented achievements in the field of technology and a kind of almost steampunk-like path of development, not necessarily bad and in many ways surprisingly effective and functional.
For a month now I have been living in a state of dismay at how much I have idealized them, and for the rest of my life, which I would say is halfway through, I will hate the Russians and despise everything Russian. I'm sorry, I know I'm depriving myself internally of many good perceptions and experiences, but it's so right!!!!
Russia does not belong in Europe and the civilized world, the kind of world I want to live in!!!